I'm absolutely in awe at all the support and encouragement I got from my blog post today. It's weird and amazing at the same time to know there are so many people out there who are struggling themselves but are willing to reach out and support my struggle! I thank each of you from the bottom of my big ol heart and I look forward to getting to know yall and making some great friends! All that love just put me in a GREAT mood!
...and it lasted until I got to Walmart with four kids, three of ours and a boyfriend. If yall woulda seen us, you would have sworn that none of them had ever been to Walmart. They weren't really bein bad, like screaming or throwing tantrums but these kids have the worst case of ADHD EVER! Everything they saw was the coolest thing ever and HAD to have it! All I needed was some chalk for my new chalk board labels and a foam brush and something for supper.
At that point, I decided to let Alexis and Jared spend the night at their Granny's and if I hurried, I could make it to Albany! Albany has a Target, a mall, a Hobby Lobby and a Michaels. It's an hour away and I have several little projects I want to finish. Just because I can't go buy pretty clothes cause my fat ass won't fit in them, doesn't mean I can't make pretty things.Anyway I've been DYING to go and I don't want to go tomorrow - it's the only full day I have and I don't want to spend it shopping, especially since it takes an hour to get there and an hour to get home. And Sunday, Hobby Lobby is closed.
If I went to Albnay, AJ and her boyfriend would have to go. So I asked her if she wanted to go and she said "No!" Womp, womp, womp! My heart sank. There was no way I was dragging two miserable teenagers around. I've been so busy with moving and being domesticated that I haven't had any me time or any time to do any thing I want to do. And apparently I wasn't going to tonight either.
It changed my whole mood. Why is everyone so insensitive? I do everything for everyone. When's it my turn? I know the kids don't know any better but Don? I love that man more than life and I do everything I can to make his life easier. Why in the hell doesn't he get that I need to do something that doens't involve coding and billing colonoscopies, meal planning, and buying toilet paper? I mean seriously??? I can't remember the last time I did anything fun by myself or as a couple with Don. I'm tired of sitting at home and watching football/nascar/passtime/storage wars etc. but every time I ask him about doing something, he's tired or he's gotta be up early the next day or he just doesn't want to.
So I'm sitting here on the couch, not eating spaghetti o's, and watching some lame ass movie with Kirstie Alley and Tim Allen, with no craft supplies. I don't even drink but there's a liquor store down the road and it's reaaallly tempting yall. If I knew I wouldn't feel like shit tomorrow, I'd be there in a heart beat and then I'd spend the rest of the night in the bathtub with the jets on.
I'm sorry to be such a Sensitive Suzy but the way it all unfolded got me thinking and I wasn't real fond of the conclusion.
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