Weigh In Wednesday Fail...Again!

I seriously need to get my shit together. Yesterday I had planned on doing the Weigh In Wednesday linkup. I've been wanting to do it ever since I found Skinny Jean Pilgrimage: A Journey to Milfdom. I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember. I wish I was as small as I was back when I first started thinking I was fat. I wasn't fat then. I'm fat now! And unhappy. And miserable. And no matter what, I cannot seem to stay motivated for any amount of time.

As far as failing to do the weigh ins on Wednesday, I always get busy at work (where I blog from - don't judge me! When I'm at home, I try to "be there" - no phones, social media, etc.) or I forget or  I don't know where to start. And yesterday when I walked into work, I stepped on to the scale, read that horrible number, and decided that it was gonna happen.I was going to do my first weigh in, make a plan, and stick with it. I know there is alot of support that can come from blogging and I would finally make myself accountable for the hot mess I created.

But then, I had to call the collection agency that was about to start garnashing my wages for a $2500 student loan from 2005. And everything went to hell. After and hour on the telephone, I was so frustrated and pissed off with that situation that my whole mood went from "Yay! It's Wednesday and I love everything to fuck the fuckin world!"

And then I went to Burger King. What did I order? Not a salad, or a wrap, hell I don't even know if Burger King has anything even kind of remotely healthy. Two BK Bacon Burgers. Not one, but T-W-O! They're tiny and I ususally justify it by bringing up the fact that I never order fries, or drinks but there is no excuse for that mess. I know this. And I'm sick of being unhappy with myself because of my weight so you can bet next Wednesday, I'll be joining the linkup with a real plan and I'm going to have my shit together!